It's been a couple weeks I think since I left the hospital and headed back home to Maryland. I guess it's a good thing, ultimately.

I don't think I feel any better though, which is a little discouraging. The same things are turning over in my mind.. I still feel a little like I did that night. I kind of wish that I'd just done it, y'know?

Even though I left school, which was ultimately my biggest stressor, I keep disappointing myself in other ways. Any tiny insult from a person is like.. a whole day of contemplating my self worth.

The logical side of me is like, "Get over it. Those people don't matter. You're getting all hung up over something stupid." But emotionally I just can't seem to manage it. I wish people could understand it's just not that easy for me.

I've only been keeping up with a couple of people for reasons I'd rather keep private. But I hope everyone else is doing well.

New art should be up soonish now that I have free time.